Pressing lidless eyes and waiting for a knock upon the door

I wanna be where the wind was blown when the air was never meant To be breathed Before there are words, do you dream? Before there is you does someone dream? To become the sands to wash my words in the sea

As the day’s eaten up into swarming night the hall-lights are dimming slowly flooding out their minds

Hold me, summer sky Tear me in two as the stars sigh Breathe me, in and out Crush me with your tongue against the roof of your mouth Wear me down and down I’ll just slough off every bone in my body Bleed me, pale meridian Show me to the world that melts

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Hold onto it til it disappears hold on to the way things used to be wring out pillows, feel your own hot breath pick apart your thoughts til nothings left and it fails Kill and eat your holographic brain fairy-rings are dots in top-domains dry your retina through osmotic eyes midnight stains your gums and gets you high and it fails (You cannot erase me from your mind…) I cannot stand straight upon the earth. I can feel in my spine: the earth crawling out itself. I can feel the clawing. I can feel the mountains moving, the earth’s crust ripping to shreds. I can feel the moon forming. And in death, or hell, or cyberspace, I can hear voices singing morbidly. Falling, crumbling, falling, crumbling

If you died today My world would be thrown away uhhh when Im with you I feel I feel okay I love you so much I love you so much I lvoe you so much I love you much I love you so much I love you so much I love you so much I love you so— When tears drip From your eyes It makes me wish I Knew how to cry uhhhh when you laugh it Makes me Wish I knew how to talk ( I love you so much I love you so much I love you so much I promise I love you I promise I love you I promise I love you I promise I love you even if it— never been interested In what other people feel but if you were upset I’d say I’m sorry Close to the way that the world’s meant to be Close to the mountains and close to the sea That’s what you mean that’s what you mean to me Close to the mountains and close to the— If you’ll Die tonight I’ll stay Up with you and that’ll be the Last time I feel okay I love you so much I love you so much I lvoe you so much I love you much I love you so much I love you so much I love you so much I love you so—

ian

whiskers & fangs, I’ll dig into you I don’t feel sad Unless you are too Fur in my teeth, I’ll make us rat stew you’ll stoke the fire while im drifting through… Whiskers and fangs, My gums show wish i could purr so that you could know Just how safe you make me feel Just how you make the world seem real Whiskers & fangs, paws and tail Curled on your lap The stars are pale The moon is full, And it makes me sick might have to drink your blood real quick cause it makes me better, Im sure you can tell As long as it’s from you, It makes me well Wish i could spend 8 more lives with you Wish there was more for us to both do my claws and teeth are sounding alarms Ive got my eye on your bruised arm My tail twitches when im alone All i want’s for you ………..to come home so come home I dont feel human, I don’t feel right I just feel like spending the night With you, your shape by my side your sweat on my hands, your voice in the night Whiskers and tails, Whiskers and fangs Snowy cat ,i’ll remember your name Whiskers and tails, Whiskers and fangs whiskers & you…..

I wanna be between the shore and the trees I want to stand in the floodpath of the wind I cannot desire anything that’s tangible I am floating always like the stormclouds hovering, the salty mists emanating from the infinite blue dark and gaping to swallow what ever crosses its mouth Everything that hurts to feel what am I waiting for always stuck between worlds upon the rapid face of the cold And it sings and it moves and it breathes And it looked me in the eye It looked into my eyes You cant leave even if you’d try paralyzed under pixel eyes vivid grip and a lucid sting As your blood is drawn into the thing Fangs can carve as much as they can kill shapen into something not of your will starving moons alight with sunward eyes my own soul is feeling sanitized The death of the sun is coming I can sprout snakes from my own wounds I can feel the sky collapsing, I will be eaten if the mother wants and she opens up from the bowels of the earth and she doesn’t care how hard you cling on Wring wine into me: I thirst The sun is beating, the world’s drying out If there were water we should drink and if it rains we should get soaked But the world is cast into eternal summer swelter the sweat sticks to my clothes you can touch my breath and the heat it glows This is a message from the maternal spider goddess Rin: spiker is burning. Her body has been hijacked by the archangel Michael as a means to escape the fires of hell. A second angelic rebellion followed a period of insanity around the year 1054 AD. Regretting his straying from God, the archangel snapped and mutilated as many as he could, sometimes carving “יהוה” into their backs. He seems to be under the impression that delivering his own bodily sacrifice may appease God and allow him back into paradise, spiker being his body of choice. Only if she heals me, the intersex demon of the primordial night world, will rain fall upon the earth ever again, the angel perishing with her body. I sit beside the freezing lake beneath hell. Her journey may bring about her own spiritual death, and her soul will pass through the sky as a streak of green lightning. improvised screaming this is not a means of keeping control It is just a way to split what is whole a sharpened tooth dislodged from bleeding gums a shotgun shell aborted from its gun And as hellfire freezes me, my rattling brain is thawing Ice chips burnt into the folds of the brain tongue short-circuits as it shocks out the name Of the one who keeps my body As a fully functioning meat-machine, but my flesh is tender enough for the teeth of whatever werewolf loves me I shock the electrons out of my nerves stuttering in symbols instead of in words GOD, pierced and hung on the stake sags down, but the crippled fisher keeps his crown machines stretch skin over the dot-patterns there is nothing humans can’t unlearn fear its face, glowing as the sun but without its warmth, with inhuman hums your mother has been vaporized, comfort has metastasized the outside is creeping in the outside is creeping in and if it rains, you will find me here wrapped in walls and lost in the sea breaking my frame of mind to be never online

the thunderclouds roll in the angel of yhwh makes its apparition the rain’s keystrokes type one last malfunction the waves climax in one spewing sin the the waters darkened and stopped the gulls went shell-shocked a still human shape that the waves hugged limbs limp , eyes unplugged the summer held its breath the heat was silently swept under the rain and in one flash of green lighting The sky went black and the earth pulled me the sun gave up the sun gave up no reason to go on but no reason to end no reason to go on but no reason to end I’m skinless in the sea

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