1. |
and if it rains
01:46
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Pressing lidless eyes and waiting for a knock upon the door
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2. |
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I wanna be
where the wind
was blown
when the air
was never meant
To be breathed
Before there are words,
do you dream?
Before there is you
does someone dream?
To become the sands
to wash my words in the sea
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3. |
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4. |
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As the day’s eaten up
into swarming night
the hall-lights are dimming slowly
flooding out their minds
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5. |
Summer sky
04:21
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Hold me,
summer sky
Tear me in two
as the stars sigh
Breathe me,
in and out
Crush me with your tongue
against the roof of your mouth
Wear me
down and down
I’ll just slough off
every bone in my body
Bleed me,
pale meridian
Show me
to the world that melts
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6. |
stickiness
03:16
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7. |
july ritual
00:13
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001010100011001011110011010010110000100010010010000 Recording devices. Copiers. Washing machines. Samplers. K-stammer (((re) re) reruns) cross-cut
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8. |
Zero heat-death
05:49
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Hold onto it til it disappears
hold on to the way things used to be
wring out pillows, feel your own hot breath
pick apart your thoughts til nothings left
and it fails
Kill and eat your holographic brain
fairy-rings are dots in top-domains
dry your retina through osmotic eyes
midnight stains your gums and gets you high
and it fails
(You cannot erase me from your mind…)
I cannot stand straight upon the earth. I can feel in my spine: the earth crawling out itself. I can feel the clawing. I can feel the mountains moving, the earth’s crust ripping to shreds. I can feel the moon forming. And in death, or hell, or cyberspace, I can hear voices singing morbidly. Falling, crumbling, falling, crumbling
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9. |
Love you so much
02:58
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If you
died today
My world would be
thrown away
uhhh when Im with you
I feel
I feel
okay
I love you so much I love you so much
I lvoe you so much I love you much
I love you so much I love you so much
I love you so much I love you so—
When tears drip
From your eyes
It makes me wish I
Knew how to cry
uhhhh when you laugh it
Makes me
Wish I knew
how to talk (
I love you so much I love you so much
I love you so much I promise I love you
I promise I love you I promise I love you
I promise I love you even if it—
never been
interested
In what other people feel
but if you were upset
I’d say
I’m sorry
Close to the way that the world’s meant to be
Close to the mountains and close to the sea
That’s what you mean that’s what you mean to me
Close to the mountains and close to the—
If you’ll
Die tonight
I’ll stay
Up with you
and that’ll be the
Last time
I feel
okay
I love you so much I love you so much
I lvoe you so much I love you much
I love you so much I love you so much
I love you so much I love you so—
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10. |
ian
01:55
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ian
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11. |
whiskers & fangz
02:56
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whiskers & fangs,
I’ll dig into you
I don’t feel sad
Unless you are too
Fur in my teeth,
I’ll make us rat stew
you’ll stoke the fire
while im drifting through…
Whiskers and fangs,
My gums show
wish i could purr
so that you could know
Just how safe you make me feel
Just how you make the world seem real
Whiskers & fangs,
paws and tail
Curled on your lap
The stars are pale
The moon is full,
And it makes me sick
might have to drink your blood real quick
cause it makes me better,
Im sure you can tell
As long as it’s from you,
It makes me well
Wish i could spend 8 more lives with you
Wish there was more for us to both do
my claws and teeth are sounding alarms
Ive got my eye on your bruised arm
My tail twitches when im alone
All i want’s for you ………..to come home
so come home
I dont feel human,
I don’t feel right
I just feel like spending the night
With you, your shape by my side
your sweat on my hands, your voice in the night
Whiskers and tails,
Whiskers and fangs
Snowy cat ,i’ll remember your name
Whiskers and tails,
Whiskers and fangs
whiskers & you…..
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12. |
Never online
16:39
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I wanna be
between the shore and the trees
I want to stand in the floodpath of the wind
I cannot desire anything that’s tangible
I am floating always
like the stormclouds hovering,
the salty mists
emanating from the infinite blue
dark and gaping to swallow
what ever crosses its mouth
Everything that hurts to feel
what am I waiting for
always stuck between worlds
upon the rapid face of the cold
And it sings and it moves and it breathes
And it looked me in the eye
It looked into my eyes
You cant leave even if you’d try
paralyzed under pixel eyes
vivid grip and a lucid sting
As your blood is drawn into the thing
Fangs can carve as much as they can kill
shapen into something not of your will
starving moons alight with sunward eyes
my own soul is feeling sanitized
The death of the sun is coming
I can sprout snakes from my own wounds
I can feel the sky collapsing,
I will be eaten if the mother wants
and she opens up
from the bowels of the earth
and she doesn’t care how hard you cling on
Wring wine into me: I thirst
The sun is beating,
the world’s drying out
If there were water
we should drink
and if it rains
we should get soaked
But the world is cast into eternal summer swelter
the sweat sticks to my clothes
you can touch my breath
and the heat it glows
This is a message from the maternal spider goddess Rin: spiker is burning. Her body has been hijacked by the archangel Michael as a means to escape the fires of hell. A second angelic rebellion followed a period of insanity around the year 1054 AD. Regretting his straying from God, the archangel snapped and mutilated as many as he could, sometimes carving “יהוה” into their backs. He seems to be under the impression that delivering his own bodily sacrifice may appease God and allow him back into paradise, spiker being his body of choice. Only if she heals me, the intersex demon of the primordial night world, will rain fall upon the earth ever again, the angel perishing with her body. I sit beside the freezing lake beneath hell. Her journey may bring about her own spiritual death, and her soul will pass through the sky as a streak of green lightning.
improvised screaming
this is not a means of keeping control
It is just a way to split what is whole
a sharpened tooth dislodged from bleeding gums
a shotgun shell aborted from its gun
And as hellfire freezes me,
my rattling brain is thawing
Ice chips burnt into the folds of the brain
tongue short-circuits as it shocks out the name
Of the one who keeps my body
As a fully functioning meat-machine, but
my flesh is tender enough for the teeth
of whatever werewolf loves me
I shock the electrons out of my nerves
stuttering in symbols instead of in words
GOD, pierced and hung on the stake sags down,
but the crippled fisher keeps his crown
machines stretch skin over the dot-patterns
there is nothing humans can’t unlearn
fear its face, glowing as the sun
but without its warmth, with inhuman hums
your mother has been vaporized,
comfort has metastasized
the outside is creeping in
the outside is creeping in
and if it rains, you will find me here
wrapped in walls and lost in the sea
breaking my frame of mind
to be never online
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13. |
The sea
05:40
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the thunderclouds roll in
the angel of yhwh makes its apparition
the rain’s keystrokes type one last malfunction
the waves climax in one spewing sin
the the waters darkened and stopped
the gulls went shell-shocked
a still human shape that the waves hugged
limbs limp , eyes unplugged
the summer held its breath
the heat was silently swept under the rain
and in one flash of green lighting
The sky went black and the earth pulled me
the sun gave up
the sun gave up
no reason to go on
but no reason to end
no reason to go on
but no reason to end
I’m skinless in the sea
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14. |
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okay
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